Looking From The Outside

If you look at me from the outside
You might assume she just sits at her computer achieving nothing,
Looking at my spamsing body
You might be fooled into assuming this,
And I don’t make a contribution to the society…
This couldn’t be further from the truth. ‘

Even though I have had more bad days than good in the past few years,
Until this February I prided myself on being a journalist,
Chasing and organising interviews was my life for over eight years,
People still say, “You have to interview Rob Rob”,
and they’re right.  I will!

I live for holidays with Mum or a friend,
Queensland is our favourite destination,
Because of my little brother and my little niece up there,
But going away with my Bestie is the best fun
He makes me forget about all of my health issues for a while.,
We get up to mischief!

Looking at me you wouldn’t know how I met a musician at one of his gigs,
I struck up Dutch courage and asked my carer to ask him over to our table,
We bonded immediately and for six years we were best mates,
We used to text everyday, sometimes he just wanted to say hi
or chat about things that made us laugh,
And even though he broke my heart in the end,
I don’t regret meeting him,
because he taught me that some people “Just see Jac”.

Judging and Misconceptions

For a while I’ve been holding my tongue about we, as a collective society, are so quick to judge someone or groups of people for things they choose or have no choice over. We all look different, have different faiths or belong to a religion, living with illnesses which are either present or naked to the eye.

From what I’ve experienced with living with Cerebral Palsy and since my pain has become a daily thing is some people love to judge with what I’m doing with my life.  I’ve had to make decisions to stop doing things, and they weren’t easy decisions.  Some people may believe I’ve become slack because most days I sit in front of my computer, do a little bit of Facebook, chat to friends and family, listen to an audiobook and after lunch watch Netflix.  I wish my life was completely different at the moment.  I wish I could visit friends and family, but the truth is I don’t have the energy and most importantly I don’t wanna risk a nerve episode (aka pain). So I’m HAPPY with what I do, even though it’s nothing really.

People are so quick to judge these days.  Ultimately peoples’ lives are theirs and if they aren’t hurting you or causing you harm, leave them alone.  Life is a gift and people with disabilities or illnesses know this fully.